Assalamualaikum

Dah lama rasanyaa tak update apa apa dekat blog ni. Banyak sangat perubahan dalam hidup utk tahun 2015 ni.

Setiap apa yg terjadi semuanya atas ketentuan Illahi. Tak ada siapa pun yg dapat menyangkalnya.

Alhamdulillah, tahun ni masih lagi diberi kesempatan utk merasai nikmat Bulan ramadhan,  menyambut hari raya puasa dan juga hari raya aidil adha. Walaupun tahun ni raya aidiladha kena kerja tp alhamdulillah rancangan Allah swt, Dia melimpahkan rezeki buat hambaNya.

Banyak suka dan duka utk tahun ni. Nak menulis tentang setiap satu perkara pun rasa malas. Sebab malas sangat nak ingat benda benda yg dah lepas.

Cuma mampu berharap, setiap dugaan yg Allah swt berikan,  aku mampu utk hadapi dengan rasa tenang.

Be a staff nurse was quite a tough job. Its not only about how you treat your patients,but its all about how you manage your emotion to face them. As I was in neonates department, the feeling were totally different as in medical department. 

Care about a newborn baby whom need a very very coolest care. A newborn baby whom need to be ventilate to survive. A newborn baby who know nothing about their surroundings. 

The hardest part when you need to take care that very critical ill baby. Who need the highest setting of ventilator. When you see by yourself that baby were struggling to survive, were struggling to breathe. When all of the team were trying so hard doing the CPR , Resus the baby. But then you didn't manage to save that baby. Then you see his/her parents crying and trying so hard to accept that their heir, their love,their baby was gone. 

You'll never imagine that feeling. 

But some of the babys were successfully discharge home in a good condition. No need oxygen support at home. Sometimes the most critical baby were successfully survive. He/she must be someone that can manage anything in their life. 

Assalamualaikum

Harap Masih belum terlambat utk ucapkan Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan al Mubarak.

Tahun kedua berpuasa sebagai seorang jururawat, sebagai anak rantau dan berkeseorangan lagi.  InsyaAllah semuanya akan berubah.  Aminnnnn.

Assalamualaikum ,

Gila lama tak post any news dekat blog . Not even about my 1year service as nurse .

So lets have some #trobek ok .

Alhamdulillah , on 29th april was my 1year as gov service . Who knew that i managed to go through all this thing from the day one as a nurse . Allah SWT was with me all the time .
I will never ever forget how i was look alike on my first day in NICU .

Lapor diri pada 29april2013 dekat SUK Shah Alam , bayangkan laa perasaan aku masa tu . Macam nak tercabut segala organ dlm badan . I felt like oh that was damn much ! The creepy part bila masa kena beratur and wait for the surat penempatan . Duh ~ kenapa semua ni perlu berlaku ?

Hospital Shah Alam , penempatan sementara di Hospital Sungai Buloh .

And i was like . You joking me man ! That's too much !
Shah Alam ? Not even 50% complete at that time . So terpaksa merempat dekat HSgB .

So how was my department placement ? I keep telling myself for the whole my life that i will never ever ever love to be in any babies or peads ward . And Allah SWT switched it and grant my wish . There you are farah ! "Neonatal Intensive Care Unit" .

Too cool and #%$@& *fakesmile

How i am supposed to act as i neve wanted to be in that dept . Peads ? Oh you kidding me . And i know you not kidding me . *wateryeyes

Ok , part hari pertama di NICU . For sure all the senior akan pandang kita like you never ever be pandai or cekap like me . And masa tu aku rasa macam , perlu ke gantung diri ? Duh ~

You will never know how to insert ryles tube (feeding tube) to the baby as the babies was as small as your palm . You will never know how to changed the diapers as it supposed to be a basic . But how should i know if i never ever changed any baby diapers before . Ok the last time i ever did to my nephew a few months before . I should know that was the sign when my nephew was born . *gigitjari

All the seniors was like "oh this freshie was interupping my job" "ohh silly freshie " "ohh annoying freshie"

I got scolded on my day 1 tagging as team leader with my mentor . They scolded me yelling at me . And i was like . -___-" why i had to face all this kind of thing mommy ! I never wanted to be here .
Merambuihh weeyhhh ayaqmata ceq . Menangis sedu sedan call kakak .

Tapi masa cepat berlalu , meninggalkan segala kenangan pahit dan manis ke belakang untuk dijadikan sebagai pengajaran dan pengalaman . Even sekarang walaupun dah setahun servis pun still jugak kena marah still jugak tak pandai pandai .

Everyday my day in NICU , with the ventilators , ill babies , cute babies , with all those CPAP things . Never assume that all freshie will be so good at their first time . Assist them and teach them .

Thank you to all staff at NICU HSgB untuk segala tunjuk ajar dan pengalaman di sana . I owe you guys so much .
Alalalaaaa Hosp Shah Alam belum nak bukak nanti . Bila dah nak pindah shah alam nanti laa akan buat entry khas utk all the seniors and juniors . Heheh .

Last but not least , i love NICU and HSgB working enviroment .

Hello ,

Dah lama rasa nya tak menulis dekat blog ni , since sangat busy dengan kerja . As we know , kerja jururawat ni kan syif and its hard untuk dapat a very long off day .

Alhamdulillah bulan febuari 2014 , rasanya masih tak terlambat kot kalau nak cakap
" Hello and happy new year my friends !" 

Ok done . Tahun 2013 penuh dengan pengajaran yang mendewasakan aku mematangkan aku dalam segala aspek . Dari segi pemikiran , perangai , sikap dan hati . Alhamdulillah dah 10bulan begelar seorang Jururawat . Dengan dorongan ahli keluarga , orang tercinta dan sahabat handai , aku dah berjaya menempuhi segala dugaan yang ditetapkan Nya . Allah dah atur hidup aku . Tiada beban yang terlalu berat yang melebihi kemampuan hambaNya .

Secara jujurnya , banyak sangat dugaan . Lepas satu persatu sampai aku sendiri tak sempat nak kumpul duit sendiri . Terlalu banyak perkara yang perlu diselesaikan . Tapi rezeki Allah beri pada aku sangat cukup . Alhamdulillah tak pernah terputus rezeki yang Allah SWT tetapkan buat aku . Cuma depends pada aku sama ada aku pandai atau tidak untuk menguruskan semua tu .

Aku bukan blogger terkenal yang pandai menulis setiap bait perkataan tu penuh bunga dan maksud tersurat dan tersirat . Apa je yang terlintas dekat hati dan fikiran aku tu je yang akan aku taip . sampai kekadang aku sendiri macam " apa kau merepek ni farah " . Ok even sekarang pun dah boleh nampak aku merepek sebab tadi kau cerita pasal kerja and then tetiba keluar pasal ni kan .

It just merangkumi kisah hidup keseluruhan tahun 2013 dan permulaan hidup 2014 .